Numbering Days, Week 13 & 14

Lots of life in two weeks. The cycle we're in of treatment every two weeks is strange and hard. Its also some of the sweetest, most beautiful time I've lived.  I don't expect that to make sense, particularly because I can scarcely explain it myself.

At every turn, we feel so loved and cared for and held with your prayers, texts, cards. We never feel alone, what a rare blessing that is. Thank you. 

I try to sit outside everyday for vitamin D. To be able to do that barefoot in November is a treat.

Monday I went for blood work and a CT Scan. My mind was in a good place but I kept having to remind my stomach that we were only there for a test, not treatment. :)

Then two days later we went back to New York, this time into Manhattan to review test results and get treatment. Main takeaways:

• NO new metastasis 
• we will continue with the current treatment "indefinitely"
• there is more bone deterioration/fracturing from radiation
• as a potential aid to my bones, I started receiving monthly osteoporosis medication

This guy!! He is home, he is faithful, steady, a rock for our family. He cares for me so tenderly and loves me so sweetly. We desperately want to take away each other's pain, but we can only be present in it. We've always been able to cling to each other in the trenches, teammates in the good and the bad.

It was a particularly tough five or so days. As promised, the new bone vitamins caused me to feel like I had the flu, while also sick from the chemo. Supposedly those side effects only happen the first time. We can only hope.

I've got a friend

Closer than a brother

There is no judgement

Oh, how He loves me

I've got a friend

And He is my strength

He is my portion

With me in the valley

With me in the fire

With me in the storm

His mercy's enough

His grace is sufficient

So come if you're needing

Forgiveness or healing

His mercy's enough

Oh, and this is our hope

The cross, it has spoken

Death is no more

Christ is the Lord

Oh, this is our hope

Hallelujah

We are not alone

God really loves us

God really loves us

Hallelujah

Oh, praise my soul

God really loves us

God really loves us

Let all my life testify

What a Father

What a Friend

What a Savior He is