Numbering Days, Week 87-94

I didn't mean to wait seven weeks between posts and I'm sorry to those of you who are caring and praying so faithfully. Even with the delay, I still don't feel like I have many worthwhile thoughts to share.

Since my last post, I started back up with treatments after I milked the break for the procedures. Numbers 36, 37 and 38 are in the books, tomorrow I go to New York for 39. 

I'm so very tired and weary. Of it all and on a day-to-day basis. Sometimes I take one nap, sometimes I take two. I wonder how much longer I can do treatments and then I wonder how I can be so very blessed. I think what an absolutely amazing life I have and I am dazed at how very difficult it is. It is so overwhelmingly beautiful and also some days its a lot of work to see or even remember to look for beauty.  I recognize how small my world has gotten and I marvel at the ways God has expanded my capacity for doing hard things. I am living the good/hard story that God is writing.