Numbering Days, Week 158-170

 

Now that the posts about our lake house project are wrapping up, now that its been three months since I've written about cancer here, and now that I have some good news to report...here I am. 

If we were keeping score, bad news has handily outweighed the good in my health journey. For whatever reason, my body generally prefers the hard way...the road less traveled, if you will. ;)

 BUT, yesterday I went to New York for labs and a PET scan and, year-over-year, the scan shows  "unchanged"!! AND the tumor marker number went down. 

This is miraculous, truly! It defies what *should* be happening.

So, we are giving thanks for a good report, pausing to celebrate and delight in the process and what we do have. Its true that we can train our hearts to experience delight that is not outcome-dependent. 

Often without thought, or sometimes with great effort I ask myself, what is good in my story? Today, reading test results, the good was easy to spot. Today, flipping the calendar to October and knowing the splendor we are about to witness in New England, the good was easy to spot. Today, hugging all three of my kids, the good was easy to spot. Today, when tears of joy were shed on my behalf by people deeply invested in our story, the good was easy to spot.

Your prayers and love and support help to sustain me. The fact that you (still!!) follow our story and care...it means alot.