Monday, July 13, 2015

Doing Battle, Week 42

This will be short and sweet. I'm typing on a device with one finger, in an awkward position in bed, part of my brain is cloudy because of the meds and part of it is distracted because of the pain. My neighbor has The Bachelor, or some such program on and the nurses are in and out with regularity. Less than ideal conditions for blogging! 😁

The answer to the million dollar question is, yes....I am STILL at the hospital! I've had a full range of emotions over the last 12 days...I think the two most prevalent would be gratefulness and discouragement.

Gratefulness that I get to be here and for all the help and support and prayers we've had. Grateful that insurance is picking up the tab of this hospital stay. Grateful that even though it's still raw and painful and hard, we ARE on the other side of surgery and probably cancer.

Discouraged that I'm still here, that progress is slow and answers not definitive. Discouraged that it feels like all the hard work I did to prepare for this was for naught.

I had my second of two scans for the week tonight, so those results will be looked at in the morning. We're praying that the drainage is under control and we can start disconnecting some things, making it realistic to get HOME.

5 comments:

Michele said...

Praying. Sending hugs to you and your family. We love you!

LuAnn said...

Praying your return home will be soon.

Karen said...

Love and prayers! Believing your healing will be faster now. Hope you will be home soon. Karen xoxo

The Bug said...

Love & prayers from Ohio too!

Ashley Beth said...

Your hard work most surely wasn't for naught. God is sanctifying you and healing the whole of you moment by moment. I just know it. Love and prayers from Colorado!