After 3 1/2 weeks of being sick, I finally gave in and went to see a doctor, something Shaun has been telling me to do for two weeks. The doctor started laughing when she looked in my ears with the ear-thingy. You don't have pain?!? Your ears are the color of...of (looks around the room finally pointing to a bright red on a poster on the way)...that. You must have a really high pain tolerance.
Everytime someone says this, I'm always thinking to myself I have three children, all from natural child birth. Once you include that on the pain-rating scale, well...suddenly a double ear infection doesn't seem so awful. Just sayin'.
Speaking of labor...
Anyway, after getting a breathing treatment on the spot, I walked out with four different prescriptions. Three for the bronchitis/asthma and one for the ear infections. I filled two of them....one I felt was more excessive medication than I needed and the other was $150, with a coupon...I'll manage without. So for $200, I should be feeling better soon.
Funny thing is though, I felt worse today than I have for at least a week and I think it was the power of suggestion. Everyday I've been telling myself I don't feel that bad, and surely by tomorrow I'll be much better. Then today, a doctor tells me how very sick I am and how much my ears should hurt and how I shouldn't be breathing and then I spend the day feeling my ears hurt.
So much of our life experiences and what we get out of them is dependent on our thinking. Everyday I recite with the girls that verse on my blog banner. This is the day that the Lord has made and we will rejoice and be glad in it. So many mornings I've had the conversation with Amanda (and myself!) that it is our choice. We may have woken up in a bad mood, or in fear of what the day will bring, but everyday, no matter our circumstances, we are presented with the opportunity to make a choice. A choice that says I will rejoice and I will be glad. Some days its harder than others, but I really believe in the power of talking to ourselves and just making a decision.